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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus
Does anybody ever feel resistance to getting better? I feel this intense resistance to getting any better. It's almost like I enjoy feeling bad.
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Like a self sabotaging way? Self handicapping? People do that because they are afraid of failure.
I enjoy feeling sad but I don't enjoy self destructive behaviour or making irrational/illogical problems for myself that get me no where. I only self destruct because I say "**** it. This is hopeless" and give in to the void because I'm too tired to keep going" or;
If I'm chasing a good feeling either by: Using discipline to make myself feel bad so I can learn from it or if I know that it's going to get me somewhere by solving good problems or: I know it will be good in the moment but bad afterwards (Which I ignore).