First, I think it's just the general sense of nihilism I have. I can't get anywhere in life because of this nihilism.

I also have doubts about everything. I wish I didn't have to experience all this stuff during covid-19. I guess it all sort of culminated this year with me having an existential crisis.

People, including my therapist, are helping me try to find meaning.

However, it's very, very hard for me to find meaning in life right now.

I don't know if it's because of the meds or what.

I kind of just feel like I'm going through the motions.