I'm feeling worse today, but I'm not surprised. Everyday, my depression is twice as bad as the previous day, so unfortunately, it's expected. However, it's really spiraling out of control, and quickly.. I'm glad I have therapy 2x this week, though. I think both sessions should help me.

I'm trying to stay positive and cling onto the good times (e.g., when I was happy and doing things I loved) and cling onto the fact that I don't want to devastate anybody. I'm trying really hard not to give in. Plus, I know that it takes time for a medication change to kick in... So I am trying to stay hopeful.

Whatever. I just feel like total s***. I sent my boss an email saying that I am taking the day off "because I don't feel well." I didn't want to elaborate on WHY, but yeah... he'll probably think I'm sick with a cold or something. However, telling the truth, unfortunately, could cause trouble and affect my employment, as many of you know.