Oddly quiet here this morning. Slept fairly well again. Finally forced myself out on the bike yesterday for 90 minnutes. Totally did not want to do it. Yawned the entire way. Was hoping I would feel better after, but that only lasted for 30 minutes or so. I continue to plagued by an overwhelming feeling of spaciness, weakness, fatigue, and not rightness of a kind I really do not exactly recall before. Again, sorta wondering if I am circling the depression drain. Def anhedonic, amotivated, blue a fair amount of the time. No SI, so that is great, and I do actually have a very strong desire to do stuff. I just can't really make it happen.

Did kind of clean a bit yesterday, so that is good. As fern points out, there are times when I just have to ride this thing out. I don't even know what kind of med change one would even make for this weird thing I have going on. No clue. I tis almost a little bit like I am high on some new kind of drug. I do feel high, I would say.

Turned the tube on while making coffee and quite tragically, had to listen to my president attempt to explain to me that the solution to police violence and unaccountability is renewed, blind support for the police. I need to go pull out my 1984again...

Hope everyone is all right out there. Hugs and love to everyone.