Took the extra seroquel, stopped both antidepressants and, after she returned my call I learned I was supposed to take temazepam, a drug for insomnia. Took that at 7 like she said. Then I took 2MG of klonapin an hour ago and I’ve had the most I can have in one day. Still wide eyed. I think I’m going to climb on the counters just to jump off of them. I haven’t tried that since I was a kid. And I really want a joint. I havent smoked in over 20 years but I know I need one. I’m having trouble even processing the need for sleep because I think the devil wants me to stop moving...to stop dancing...to stop working. Not sure where to go from here.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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