I guess Scrabble is not a suitable hobby for me. It's going to be tough to quit since i've been playing for twenty years. But i'm just I'm not tough enough emotionally to compete. I've actually tried to quit a bunch of times before. The first time i was so sure it was all over i donated my set to the club. And then went back and had to rebuy it all. I learned not to get rid of my stuff.

Playing is an unpleasant experience tho as often as it is a pleasant one. I'm tired of getting all torqued up on frustration. I spent the rest of the evening reading and had a much more enjoyable time and am feeling a lot better than after an evening playing with sky-rocketing and then plummeting emotions, tearing my gizzard out.

So i'll make another effort to quit but won't be too surprised if i'm unable to, yet again. It's my one toe-hold in the world and about the only thing that makes me interesting. Everyone knows me as "Scrabble Jane." It's nice to have a skill, however modest.

I don't know. Maybe this is the depression talking.

Anyways hugs to all who struggle...