I did, in the very beggining. I was hopping trust issues would get better as years went by but they didn't. I have a new partner for three years now, he is exactly what I asked for in all those years I was married to someone who dind't give a damn to what I needed or wanted...So it seems so unfair that I cannot devote myself to him as I did to my ex-husband. That I cannot but think that as good as this might be now, it means nothing and in the end everything ends. I just wish I could let go.