I feel horrible still. My depression is stubborn and doesn't want to go away... but I do realize that it takes 2-4 weeks for Trileptal to take effect, so I think I will be dealing with this crap for a while.

I normally would take the day off today, but I'm supposed to have meetings with the new people I'm managing. It really sucks because I need to take another mental health day. I'm just spiraling downward day by day, feeling worse as time progresses. On the upside, though, at least I can see my therapist again this week (Friday). I think I will need this session so that I don't do anything impulsive.

Anyway, I'm going to try for a walk today. My therapist recommended going for at least 5-10 mins to see how I feel. She said if I don't feel good after 5-10 mins, then I can go back inside. However, she wants me to at least try walking, so I'm going to give it a shot. I doubt it's going to help, though, as I did do a short "walk" yesterday (like 1 min to my car) and I hated it because I was alone with my thoughts and nothing to distract myself with. But I have to give it a try anyway. I just don't have high hopes. Sorry for being negative.