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Originally Posted by SorryShaped
I'm not clear on anything. There are electric shocks throughout my body very frequently. My mind is not my own any more. My thoughts drift to lesser things and I have no picture of a future. I'm spiraling downward. My mind cannot be expected to heal when my body is so far gone and not getting better. I think the surgeon was trying to kill me slowly, and is winning. I sleep 20+ hours most days to keep the pain away. My vision is a little less than focused all the time. I shiver coldly in the bright summer sun. I've failed at this try. I don't feel understood.
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Hi SorryShaped,
I am sorry you are suffering.
Forgive me, I don't know why you've had surgery.
Have you checked in with your doctor and given him/her a list of your symptoms?
If your current pain meds are too sedating, you can ask your doctor for a different pain treatment plan. Often, post-surgical pain is treated with a combination of an NSAID and acetaminophen. I am not suggesting you take these OTC meds. I am simply giving an example of potential alternatives. I am not a medical professional Special attention must me taken re: liver and kidney function, etc. Please contact your doctor about ALL of your symptoms.
I've seen you move between your mood states. You do experience rather severe depression. The good news is that your mood does change with time.
You've described being quite skilled in your meditation practice. Is this anything you can manage during this very distressing time?
Are you recovering alone? Are your parents or your ex-wife around and able to help/support you?
Keep reaching out.
I hope you have a better day today!
