Well, therapy was not of much help today. He wanted to discuss finances and the issues between us over finances and we did not get anywhere. Then I mentioned and wanted to discuss my husband's comment about dark haired women that has sent me into an insecurity spiral, and we didn't get far on that one either. I am disappointed by today's session and feel even more alone with this.

I know I cannot exist in a relationship where I feel insecure.
I know I cannot exist in a relationship that is frequently up and down.
I know I cannot exist in a relationship where yelling occurs periodically.
I know I cannot exist in a relationship when it feels toxic, even if just sometimes.

We fought over money last weekend, I think I mentioned. The next time he tries to argue with me, I think I will just tell him "This is toxic and I don't want any part of it".