I'm pretty agitated this evening, but have managed to hold myself back from outbursts. But I definitely feel something. I can't even describe it.

I work for a really large company. I have for about the last 20 or so years work for one or two very large companies. I've managed to avoid screwing it up despite a demotion or two related to mania. Today, I get called on the old video phone and told that I'm being transferred from the division in which I've worked for 10 years straight and have developed a reputation of hard work, and seriousness to another one reporting across the country on another coast to someone I've never met. I'll have lost the reputation I have. All the knowledge I have, is gone now, and I'm going onto an established team where everyone knows the ropes and routine and I'm expected to already know this from my previous role where I got by through hard work not through real knowledge. I'm scared man. And I'm uncertain of myself. People are going to know I'm a fraud finally. I don't even know what to do.