I had the same thing going. My mother did too. I've thought a lot about why this might happen. My theory is that music activates both hemispheres of the brain. It appeals to our intuitive and artistic side and it also appeals to our analytical side. It engages our emotional center and our memories. It connects with the web of data stored in our subconscious and brings it forward as we connect it to random and various experiences thus leading to what we call 'amazing ideas' or 'insights' while manic. Additionally, it engages us holistically. Music is spiritual, mental, emotional and physical. It hits us on all levels.

Most importantly, music resonates. It has frequency. We are electrochemical beings and we constantly pulse out waves of energy. When we listen to a song or certain type of song over and over we entrain with the frequency as the neurons in our brains fire and the chemicals pulse. Essentially, I think we like it when manic because it lights up our brain, feels good physically as it activates everything, and it keeps us in sync with the energy we are emitting in lower levels already without it. The Beach Boys nailed it. Good vibrations.

Except... In the case of mania, it is actually not so great. The brain cannot sustain the level of activity and the waves of entrainment start to reach a level of frequency and amplitude that is not sustainable. So while music may feel incredible while manic, it would be wise to limit it or move to something with a lower frequency.

Here is a little bit of physics meshed with neuroscience to explain. When our neurons fire in the brain they send out waves of energy. As we listen to notes in music, our brain responds. We also have a chemical response that sends out waves of energy. The faster the music, the greater the frequency of the waves. Imagine ocean waves that are really close together.

Now imagine that we are already in a super high energy state. The greater the energy that is put into a wave, the greater the amplitude or height of the wave.

Also, as waves collide with other waves, energy is displaced and added to the amplitude of the wave. This is especially true when we find a 'perfect song' that is a match for the frequency of the waves we already have going.

When we are manic, our minds are already on fire and processing tons of things pulsing out waves. You then turn music on that is high frequency and resonant with your brain pattern and you start vibing with it and dancing along and even singing and then BAM. You have behemoth super waves pulsing all throughout your body giving you the feeling of being electric or tingly or whatever.

Eventually though, it is just too much and it overloads your system. The frequency and amplitude go higher and higher and you basically fry your circuits in your brain. This is what I believe causes the crash. Music just speeds up the process. Also, when all of this is happening AND you're taking meds to try to chemically reverse this process, your body and brain are working a ton harder to fight the effect of the meds. You're taxing your mind and body even more like an addict who needs more and more drugs to get high.

Anyway, this is my take on what happens. I'm a science lover who experienced this first hand and wanted to imagine what happened in my body and understand why music was so impactful.

Cashart... For your own good, please lay off the music. Your brain and your body feel great, but you can be doing damage. You are very out of balance and need to shift back and let your body recover.