Oddly, I am feeling less agitated and less depressed right now. However, the depression and agitation could definitely get worse. I know from my own experience that my depression and agitation typically start off mild before growing worse and worse as the day drags on.

I just want this feeling to end. It is torturous. This depression is easily one one of the worst depressions I have ever had and I wish I could go to IOP or something... but 20k confirmed cases. That scares me. I wish I lived in Greenland or something. Or the North Pole. Yeah, that would be nice.

Anyway, I have meetings that start at 7:30am. Joy... So now I have less than 30 mins to prepare, and I have lots more following.

I see my pdoc and therapist tomorrow. I hope those appointments bring me some relief, even if the relief is only temporary.