Hey Indigo - is a move, or even just a little trip, a possibility?
One of the things I've been thinking about lately is how much we can control in our lives, but don't. I don't really love where I'm living for lots of reasons (especially the heat and bugs!). Honestly, if you don't like where you live - I think it becomes a constant, low-grade but always-present, sense of stress and unhappiness.
So, have you thought about where you might be happier? Maybe there's no place where it's realistic to be 100% away from people, but is there someplace that you think gets you closer to what your ideal would be?
*hugs*