I sure wish I knew how long it hurts. I was only with my partner for five years. We weren't actually married, he just kept stringing me along all that time. But he was all I had and I was happy, until a series of unfortunate events showed that he wasn't what I thought he was. Now that's all gone. Just when I think I am getting over it, something random suddenly reminds me of the gaping hole in my life.

Have you looked into counselling? I know I'm thinking about it.