Pink I know you have really been struggling for the last few months with mood swings and your cutting. It might be a helpful thing for you to consider a short stay in the hospital to break the cycle and maybe get back on even footing emotionally. It will be kind of like a "time out" where you just focus on you and getting your cutting under control. I've been in the hospital a couple of times and my experience was not bad at all. A little un-nerving maybe but I found it to be useful time where I could focus only on me and get some healing done. I Hope that this helps you and I wish you luck in your decision.