I took a leap of faith when I got married. I realize now that I have to also take a leap of faith in making myself single again. I am scared, I admit, to be single again, especially at my age when so many people and friends around me are partnered up, including my sister who is engaged to be married. Family events may be hard again for me...... the last time I was truly single, it was really hard on me, but then again, I was in a bad spot in life too, which impacted my happiness level.

I also realized that it could take more than 8 months for me to be able to move out.

A part of me previously was feeling guilty for wanting to leave him. But I do not feel guilty for taking care of myself, for looking out for my well-being and for my happiness in life. I have to look out for myself, and if I don't, no one else will. My happiness is MY solo responsibility. And if he doesn't make me happy? I have no choice but to leave. I refuse to live miserably. It's against my nature at this age and at this juncture in my life.