I didn't mention anywhere in my post that cutting was the only reason that my pdoc wanted me to go into the hospital. Anyone that does cut obviously has other problems besides that one behavior. Like Little Mouse said, I have been struggling for a long time with not only my cutting, but with intense mood swings and other destructive behaviors. My cutting has reached the point in which I can work on it all I want in therapy to figure out the underlying meanings-- but that's not going to stop the behavior. I do need a place in which the means to act on the impulses have been removed-- and possibly a place where support is available around the clock. Sometimes you have you put an intervention in place before you do something really dangerous to your body-- whether the "issues" are worked out or not. I haven't decided yet whether or not I am going. However, I do know that if I do, it is for something more than just cutting, although that is a big part of it. Before I walked out of his office today, I turned to him and said, "Give me one more reason... one more reason to go than just to temporarily stop the cutting..." And he did. So now I have to think.