This fourm keeps me going, in so many ways. I have met people like you and others on here that I can relate to, and I can talk to and not feel "stupid" for the fears i have and the emotions I have eiter

LAdy D... never feel "stupid" for the fears and emotions you are experiencing. I am sure you never asked to be going through what you are going through. It just happened.

Admittedly I used to hear stories of successful people that had lost it all and wondered how the hell it could of ever happened to them. Now I know. All it takes it a few major mistakes to wind up losing everything that you ever worked for... not just financially... but emotionally as well.

I think it hurst even worse when you feel like you have worked like hell to get back on track and you are throw a cruve yet again.

There are only so many times that one can face such disappointments in life.

Hang in there Lady D.