Hi Beth,

At least you know what's been happening and that there is a pattern.

I agree that counselling would be really helpful now, and maybe a support group. What is clearly obvious is that it's
NOT YOUR FAULT. (I don't normally use capitals on the board, but this is one message that needs saying strongly)

If you can be around some people who know about this stuff you can start making the changes. Just coming here is a big step and it is such a good place to be when you're hurting.

Stay with us if you can.

Good thoughts to you, Myzen