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Originally Posted by fern46
Well said. That is the tricky part. I didn't know what I was doing because it was my only episode so far, but I used it to go higher and to be more expansive like you said. Hopefully I catch the pattern before it spirals if there is a next time.
For me, things are easier when I can break them down and make sense of them holistically. Before I looked into any of this I just thought.... 'Wow this music is amazeballs and these artists are so right on. Let's play these songs over and over' and now if my brain starts doing weird stuff with music or it feels a little too good I think 'oh I better get off this wave before I crash' and I shut the music down for a while. My husband knows to unplug the speakers and take my headphones if I start repeating songs, overanalyzing the meaning of them and dancing everywhere I go 
I have songs playing in my head all the time though... That part I struggle to stop, but I can change the song if I force it. Do you have an internal radio too? |
Definitely. I love that term "internal radio." That's exactly what it sounds like. If I'm escalating into mania there can be 2 or 3 songs playing at once. In fact, I have gone to youtube and played several music videos at the same time, loudly. Hearing all that music at the same time felt validating, because it reflected what was in my mind.
Medication certainly helps quiet the music and sounds down; they are softer and less frequent. I can't say they're entirely gone, though. Especially if I'm stressed the music/sounds will flare up. Sometimes I have to take something prn to calm the system.