Hey just2b, I felt the same as you feel now about two and a half months ago. Emotions that I didn't feel for I don't know how long came back, and I felt that I would give anything just to go back to being dissociated. The first month was difficult, but the second one was almost unbearable. I can absolutely identify with what you are saying. It was a torture. I haven't even been aware there is such an array of emotions to feel, I think that for most of my life I have been illiterate about what do I feel. After two and a half months it is comparatively better, even though I still wish for dissociation to come back sometimes. Hang on in there. Best, A.