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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Depressed still. I wish I weren't so depressed. It's been 2 weeks on this med and... nothing. However, the med does take approx 2-4 weeks to kick in, so I have to wait at least another 2 weeks before I ditch it. But man, I thought yesterday was a good day because I was feeling less depressed, but now it's even worse today than it was all week. 
Sorry for whining. I just don't feel well and wish there were something I could do about this stubborn depression. I know I need IOP, so thank you, @ wildflowerchild25 and @ falcon09, for letting me know about virtual and in-person IOP programs. I think I'd be more comfortable with virtual even though I know in-person would be more effective.
While I research different IOP programs here, I will ask to see my therapist 2x a week in the interim. I hope she doesn't get pissed for wasting her time though. Or taking up appointment slots that other people could use.  |
Before IOP I was “seeing” (virtually) my therapist 2-3 times a week. She’s very accommodating to me, we’ve been together for five years. I can also text her to ask for an appointment or so she can remind me of skills I can use. I texted her in a panic the day before I went into IOP that I was very suicidal and I didn’t know what to do. She made an opening for me to discuss a safety plan. She pushed me to go to psych emergency but I refused because I knew they would hospitalize me. Honestly if it weren’t for covid I would have gone. But thankfully I didn’t really need to because RS was holding my meds which was the only viable plan.
As for it being more helpful in person, I don’t necessarily think that’s true. The only difference I see is that people talk over each other more because it’s hard to read facial expressions to know when someone’s about to talk. I call in from my phone rather than video chat because I hate how fat my face looks lol.
Anyway definitely do some research.