yeah. I am definitely not becoming more accepting of it. I have protested against anything abusive he's done along the way, I've drawn lines in the sand, and I've told him what is entirely UNACCEPTABLE behavior for me. I have told him many times that I will not exist in that kind of marriage or relationship, ie, where yelling occurs, for example. The only piece I haven't protested or made a stink about is him holding me down in bed. I usually laugh it off, pretending it doesn't bother me. Maybe I'm scared to acknowledge physical abuse. It's astonishing and very disturbing.