I suppose I hold back in part because I don't want to constantly be telling him "don't do this, I don't like it", and "don't do that, I don't like it". There's a litany of behaviors already that I have said things like that to him about. So I suppose these example behaviors I have simply tolerated until now, even though they're not acceptable to me. Plus, it just adds to a whole picture that spells abuse, and it;s been hard for me to accept fully that I AM being abused.