So 2 years ago I had a miscarriage at 3 months. 2 months later, I married my now exhusband. Things were great, so I thought. 3 months into our marriage I found out he was sending vulgar pics to other women and having an affair at work (his new job because he left the business I helped him start because he couldn’t agree with one of his partners). I kick him out, file for divorce and boom this coworker is pregnant and he’s moved in with her. Fast forward we get divorced in April of last year, 2 days later he has his son. Calls me from hospital saying he wished it was with me blah blah. No we’ve been divorced a year, his son is 1 (has some developmental issues), he lives with her, yet he still calls me and stops by my house at least once a month. He also has a drinking and spending problem he won’t admit to. Says he doesn’t want to marry her but he can’t leave his son yet and that I am his end game. Help me wake up please. I can’t help but be jealous and envious that she took what my life was supposed to be away, therefore it’s hard to let go. I am getting therapy starting next week. Otherwise my 2 business are booming (medical supply sales and casino events business) and I’ve got my **** together. I’m 33, I’m scared I’ll never remarry and have the family I deserve. I just can’t seem to believe he is bad.i believe everything he says, I have some hope he will come back...i am just not sure why. Oh and he’s a chef, if that even needs to be stated. But it’s his 4th job since I’ve known him...for 6 years. I’m sad, depressed and I cry still. He’s still in my life but he won’t fully come back. I also don’t know why I would want him to. I miss him terribly. Maybe I’m lonely and scared of the future? I don’t know. I just need advice, support, opinions, anything. It’s really hard, especially when everything else is so great. It brings me down. I’m not sure why I even believe him but I do.