He’s had dizzy spells and vertigo. Insurance wouldn’t helps with a CT scan. He got really dark last summer and had a hard time getting out of bed. He was really depressed. He just finished a PhD. He feels there is nothing left. He said it wasn’t


me at first and now blames me, his family, my family...He has not cut off with friends but it was odd he mentioned he could easily do it today. He did say we can do couples counseling. He will come home for the day or we can do it via online. We will maintain contact but I am not sure how often. He loves Zoom and FaceTime with friend but because of his changed personality, I know some have distanced themselves. I want him to get better. The man I married and have known for all of these year wouldnÂ’t recognize who is is now. He says he has worked so hard his entire life and now need rest. The only people who knows we are separating are myself and a cousin he had recently become close to.

I know there is only so much I can do but telling him it is he stays or itÂ’s over doesnÂ’t seem to be the right answer now. I want to but that may only push him further away. He did tell me if he stays, he feels our relationship will end, but, if he goes he feels there can be reconciliation. There was a time when he was really dark that he couldnÂ’t even show affection. He now shows affection much more often but I still see the darkness surface. Just vented here. Thanks for listening.