I have some reasons....1 you’re awesome and we would all miss you here 2 you have a kitty waiting for you....

Now what to do about it....it will pass but it will pass faster if you try to do things that you found fun before you got depressed. Did you try the pick three? You could for example play the uke which is both tactile and auditory and add a nice scent like from cookies baking or a candle or even perfume. But do what’s manageable for you right now....you know.