((((((((Pink)))))))))
You trust your Pdoc and your T a lot - Their advice is probably sound and based on solid judgement. Sounds like a "time out" might be needed - gets you away not only from the ability to cut, but also away from being a T and taking in everyone's pain for a bit? Like resetting your system and doing a mental detox?
Hope you're feeling better soon... thinking about you...
Kiya