It is official now about the program I try to enter. The 'employer' (not the actual employer, but I'm not sure what they called), picked the other candidate.
Not her fault. From the very beginning, she told me that she couldn't promise to take me. But still, I was hoping that she could change her mind and pick me instead.
We are still on the good terms though.

Ok... I have to find a new 'employer'. I hope I could... Next year I'll turn 26 and that is the age limit for the program, so my time is less than a year. I am unsure with everything now.... It depresses me every time I think about this.