I hope this helps you. Let me preface my remarks by saying I did not watch your video. I prefer videos about cute animals and pretty scenery. I have seen a few of your remarks and noted your screen name, so I think my remarks might be helpful anyway.

Women are not responsible for your feelings or for your orgasm.

If you do not know how to satisfy yourself, by yourself, I suggest you learn. That will go a long way in unclouding your vision. Once you do not feel a helpless victim to the warm feels you get in your groin when you look at women, you might stand a chance of actually building a relationship with one particular women. Not women as a group. Just one individual.

I suggest you drop the angry 'women are horrible' videos from your viewing. I would also suggest you stop viewing pornography. Pornography is no way to find a loving relationship.

To begin, you might also adopt a kinder screen name than one that seems to be referring to a sexually sadistic murderer. And even if you adopted this name because it refers to some video game character you think is cool or whatnot--if your goal is to find a nice woman and to build a loving relationship with her--it is your attitude, your world-view, that is going to make that possible.

Final thought: There is nothing wrong with friends. A few good women friends would help you figure out all that you are doing to keep yourself angry and alone.

I hope this helps.