Best sleep in weeks last night. Could not have come at a better time. Guess that Trilafon must have really helped me.

Not really experiencing any psychosis so far today. Awful yesterday. I somehow concluded that my higher power did not love me anymore and that I was going to hell because I am such a horrible and worthless person. Not a good feeling if you are a Christian. Oh well.

Maybe today will be somewhat peaceful. I do have a history of these terrible, dark, awful psychotic episodes. So devastating. Hope I don't have any today. Very painful and discouraging. All I really have, besides you guys and a few friends and my daughter, is my higher power. It would be pretty bad to lose Him.

Love and hugs to all!!!!!