Bpcyclist, I was always taught that God is a loving God. I can't imagine why on earth such a God would stop loving a wonderful man like you.

Even when we commit offenses, there is always forgiveness. To me, one of the bigger offenses in life is not forgiving small offenses, or even big ones when some form of whole-hearted repentence is made, and forgiveness asked for. That applies not only to forgiveness towards others, but also forgiveness towards ourselves.

Though I only have access to knowing you in a limited way, through PC, I know you have experienced a similar type of pain as I have, as a result of bipolar disorder. The disorder can cause us to do and feel things we, and others, don't always like. We must sometimes take responsibility for some, and ask for forgiveness, but other times it is the beast of the illness that committed the crime, and we were at its mercy.

You have offered so much to many. Don't let that fact be overshadowed. Every day you are here for us. Every day you work to heal yourself. You have love for your children and others. With your writing you offer knowledge, experience, caring, and positive solutions for the good. Hope is always alive in me, please let it live in you and all others.