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Originally Posted by Merope
I know how hard it is not being able to see T in person. Video sessions are nowhere as intimate; so much non-verbal communication is lost. I'm sorry you feel like you wasted your session, but it's okay to show how you feel about it. Maye try taking it as an emotion that needed to be let out in order for you to process it, or in order for you to be able to focus on the answers and questions when you have your next session.
Four weeks is a long time, but keep reminding yourself that the end is in sight. Each new day is going to bring you closer to seeing her in person again. And although it must be frustrating when things don't go to plan, it's okay to use this time to explore how bad this feels.
Hugs!!
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Thank you for this!
I talked to L again this morning. We set up a plan for me today: clean dining room table, watch a tv show she suggested, and take a nap later today. The goal is for me to relax and keep distracted.
I'm still super sad and angry (at myself and her) about how session went. She wanted to talk to me more, but we ran out of time. I feel devastated. She said that I'm grieving. I guess that's true. And she said that all of this has been helpful to her: she knows me better, she knows about the fear "monster" about not being able to connect, she knows about my past and how people change on me, and we both know what happens when I hit a boundary of hers. It's a very painful thing hitting her boundary (of not allowing more in-person sessions).
I guess it's a good learning experience, but it hurts like hell.