You're right! And I don't know where to focus on to get healthy. I'm scared it will take too long. No I'm terrified! I keep thinking of all the good that I could do. But without health, it's useless. And then I feel useless. I have a lot to offer the world, but the world keeps taking things away.

I'm so wishy-washy that it's unhealthy. I don't want to make the wrong choice, and then I make the wrong choice. I have been thinking of changing degrees to something more flexible, from mental health counseling to psychology. But that could add more time. I haven't looked into that change yet.

I need health, but I'm fearful of being imperfect. And that holds me back. I don't know how to get past this. And if I take care of me, I could lose my job. I'm terrified of being alone. That's the time my strength weaknens. I hope I can make the best choice for me soon.