How bad those words are.. i know your pain.. I am way over your 10 pounds over weight.. my boy friend met me when i was this way and the sex so bad.. i told him i thought he was gay.. he wont touch me at all.. i have to ask for a hug.. and after 3 years he says "you know Im not gay.. your just fat.." it broke my heart.. why didnt he just not get with me.. he says when we do make love, he has to get hard and have me on my belly, never face up.. and if he does not go in fast enough he loses his erection... but ive seen him get way excited before about men and caught him pleasureing him self in a well gay kinda way.. he says its my fault because im fat... Sure it is bad im this way..but its does hurt so much when the person who is supposed to love you the most wont or cant touch you.. and because hes not honest to him self he blames it all on me... now i dont even want to touch him and that makes him mad, he wants me to pleasure him but he wont touch me.. i just gave up and now i just have a room mate i have to cook for...