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puzzclar · Jun 20, 2020 at 09:56 PM

I was just there! I am in an IOP program, and nearing the end. If I am distracted than I'm okay, but if I sit down and think, then all hell breaks out. And I'm sitting down. My feet hurt. And that darn channel is on TV!!!! I'm wanting to be upstairs, but my room has a smell from using goof off for some tape residue. And I can't stand the smell.

T brought up hospitalization, and I had to contract for safety.

Possible trigger:

do I intend to follow what I said, can I control myself. I'm scared of the unknown. Is this really a cause for being in the hospital? Honestly, my thoughts are driving me nuts!!! One minute I'm fine, the next I think of where I want to go and I know that would not end well. If I'm honest, then I could lose my job. I can't keep in this state or trying to help people. I'm so confused and I want to hide.

I tried going to another town and state. But I had to return home. I don't want to be here. I don't want to be in my head. Where else can I be?

I am overwhelmed by the amount of change that needs the happen. And I'm terrified! I don't want to go inpaitent. But I'm concerned. I haven't told my parents yet, and I live with them, despite being an adult! I just feel hopeless!