Better day overall yesterday, until around 11 or so. Started getting derealized, everything looked phony and fake, not like a real apartment or real belongings. I often get this when I am psychotic. it is hard to describe, super weird. Anyway, was getting paranoid and starting to get frankly psychotic again, so, took my extra Trilafon like I am supposed to and then finally, just went to bed. Did not have any visual hallucinations, like the day before, so, that was a relief. I hate those.

Anyhoo, pretty okay just sitting with my coffee so far.

Maybe I might hear from my daughter today. Gotta call my dad. Haven't talked to him in a long time. He never calls me, ever. I always have to be the one to initiate. He will probably be mad at me. Oh well. I love him to death, but he hasn't exactly been there for me for the last 8 years or so, that is just the facs, ma''am. Didn't ever call or write or visit while I was in the hospital for 5 years. Sorta sad about that one, but, what am I gonna do? It happened. Move on.

Hugs and love to all!! Hope you guys all have a good day!!