Hello Creat: I believe this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. Two forums, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would include the Relationships & Communication forum & the Survivors of Abuse forum. Here are links to these forums:

https://psychcentralforums.com/relat...communication/

https://psychcentralforums.com/survivors-of-abuse/

I'm sorry you are experiencing so much difficulty. One additional forum you might like to check out would be the Childhood Emotional Neglect (CEN) forum. Here's a link to that one:

https://psychcentralforums.com/child...ional-neglect/

And then here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, on controlling parents. Then there are links to 5 articles on CEN in case you're not familiar with the concept (there are lots more in the archives.) Plus (on the assumption you are perhaps a teen) there's a link to an article that offers advice for coping with emotions as a teen:

6 Signs of Controlling Parenting and Why It Is Harmful

Invisible, Powerful Childhood Emotional Neglect

https://psychcentral.com/blog/childh...he-fatal-flaw/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...e-and-passive/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...ional-neglect/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...questionnaire/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/techni...your-emotions/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.