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Originally Posted by puzzclar
The hard part is whenever I go in, my physical state declines. I got out of a boot two weeks ago, and I would have to walk barefoot, and I know that would cause more pain. I'd be bored and not know what to do, and that could break me down farther. I am scared about a lot, including the decision to go in. I don't know if more pain would help me right now, if the virus wasn't around then I may take myself in, but since it's in, I don't want to go back.
I'm doing a bit better. Getting out of the state in the USA helped. Even if it was just for the afternoon. Today I am focusing on writing and learning, and taking time to let my mind relax, and increase my self-care. I feel lonely and I am scared to go back to work tomorrow to work with one client. I"m already overwhelmed, and I don't need that but I need the money.
I agree I do need to settle down.
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Hey, so I'm not sure if you've tried meditation or mindfulness or guided relaxation exercises before, but that might help you achieve some calm.
I'm not saying that's the only thing to do in order to feel better. It's a part of a holistic approach to getting to a steady, stable mind state. But I wonder if that might help you. There are some guided meditations on YouTube that are free and some that cost. I've been using an app called Insight Timer lately and it has some good meditations.
Once again, I'm not trying to downplay any mental health symptoms you're having, and if you're seriously considering
, might be best to go IP. But if you can handle these thoughts and the way you're feeling, and you think going IP would just make you feel worse, then don't go IP. Going IP is hard on all of us. Sounds like it's hard for you too. It is like a break from the real world. Which is good sometimes, but it definitely has its drawbacks.