I feel like my life is virtually over.

last night I found out that my online support group for incontinence sufferers was closing, meaning that I have lost over 90 percent of my friends (most of my friends I made through that group), and I am now back to a laughing stock- rather than having people that understand what I go through, people look at me now and are like.. wow, really?. that's gross!. and I'm actually feeling really bitter about it I just want to lie their and smell. but I showered today (even though it caused me great pain), and I had a fresh fruit salad- which like I've said before I try to eat more to have a healthy start to the day. but I am doing nothing today, I have no plans, and I generally feel like a big part of my life has just been ripped away