It is not weak to need or want to talk to someone about things that are bothering you. It takes a lot of courage to ask for help. I can understand you're wanting to be in control of things, I used to be that way too, but unfortunately often life doesn't work out that way and it's bettter to learn to deal with it.

I'm also a teeny bit concerned about the amount of weight you want to lose. I don't know your height and current weight but 35 pounds is actually quite a bit. That coupled with your desire for control and perfectionism could be the start of an eating disorder & that in the long run is very unhealthy.

Take care of yourself.

--splitimage