I just spoke with him on the phone. He said that before I do anything, he wants to make sure we see each other on Wednesday. He said that should I decide to go into the hospital, there are things he wants to talk about with me-- things we could do to make sure that my experience is beneficial, not traumatic.

He said that he has the same ambivalence that I do about the decision of whether or not to go in-- he said he needs to figure out his own ambivalence and what that means for him and for me.... and then we will talk about that on Wednesday.