Mania/Hypo drifted away right before I went to sleep last night. It was like a cloud lifting. I was near tears one minute hearing my wife describe what I seemed like to her. A desperate panicked person who just looked caged and ready for this to be over and ten minutes later I was talking more normally, and able to slow my thoughts down. I don't think I've been as vividly aware of that process as I was this time around.

I did take time with my wife to set up a mood tracker, I researched my medicines and wrote out what I want to say to my pdoc. I have concerns that I won't get an emergency appointment this week. They are only in the office two days a week. I am thinking and seeing clearly now that they are the wrong pdoc for me if I'm in crisis. Time to make some movies even with the crisis going on.