I take one 5mg olanzepine and one zopiclone to sleep every night. I've been doing that for a week - That's basically why I'm not any bit psychotic. I'm not dependent on benzos anymore.

I've been self medicating with phenibut for depression for a year. I took 1.1g but still don't feel happy. I'm tolerant to 1g or so a day, then go down to 500mg. I took an extra 600mg right now because I can benefit from a type of hypomania to be myself and use it to my advantage.

I used to be a complete logical atheist - With zero spirituality at all. It's like a form of stupidity. Then I became psychotic where I had magical thinking and then I tripped. It's just a long realization of the matrix. I had no proof of it because I was completely brainwashed by society, school etc.

I'm tired.