thank you everyone for your kind words..
I just dont have much support here at home and the day overwhelemed me.
my boyfriend got home from work and i know he knew i had a bad day..he had too my eyes are very swollen from crying. he said nothing.. i told him i had a bad day and i called mental health and they reminded me this is not something i can Will away.. and he said yea and went to bed...
so all of you who take the time and wish me well, means more than you could know....