I have been out of the boot for two week. I don't want the pain of walking in a boot again, puts my hips off and creates pain.

Yes a coloring book is an okay idea, but the hospital now limits what can be used because of covid.

I speak with the t at IOP today. I'm nervous to tell her how intense it's been and how much I don't know what to do/turning to old behaviors. I'm down right now and scared. I didn't sleep well. Got maybe 5 hours and my norm is 7.

Yesterday I was too bored and not wanting to do anything. Being very indecisive. Then I did something I regret, signing up for a website where I'm triggered. I need to deactivate the account. But right now it's better than sui. But it also is dangerous, both physically and emotionally. I'm just too fragile right now.

But I'm lonely too. And bored. I need different things to do. But I don't know where to turn. I know I'm depressed.