@divine1966, thanks for your concerns. I do appreciate you looking out for me!

I am not worried about the weed at all myself, though. He is very careful while driving and he's a good driver, for the most part. And the weed DOES mellow him out. I've witnessed him not on it and in fact, he's better with it.

I think it's going a bit overboard to say he will accuse me of physical abuse and him calling 911. I don't struggle enough to cause a black eye or injury. And I truly believe it won't come to anything like that.

I talked to my parents about this issue, and they advised me to point blank tell him not to do it anymore, which I will when the timing is right. It hasn't happened in a long time though because of his bad back and the immense physical pain he is in. He struggles to cuddle me, and that's the whole reason why he didn't want me to get out of bed when this happens -- so he can keep cuddling me.

What I DO worry about is what this actually means. Does it mean it COULD escalate to physical violence IF I push him enough to that level of anger? Was he just testing the boundaries to see what he can get away with, and what does that ultimately mean for me? WILL he become violent at some point? That's what I worry about. But hopefully, I can leave him before anything like that occurs, and like I wrote above, I MAY ask someone to be here when I tell him I am leaving him. But that's a long ways down the road from now.