@HaveHope, I know you have been for something more than a year with your husband and that makes things more difficult because I can see you love him so much. But, from your posts in this thread I knew you are gonna do the best for you and you aren't gonna cope with more yelling and emotional mistreat. So, I only wanted to tell you that I support you and that I think you are right when taking your time to consider all possible options and a way out if needed.
Didn't want to write a lot here because I'm myself living relationship problems and I wanted to avoid to project at any coast.
I understand how much you are struggling and I wanted you to know.