Hi I am 19 and never really been in a true relationship. I've dated a few guys and was really interested at first then it's like I got bored and left. I have done that to a few girls I just talked to online too. I am also more interested in girls.
I would really like to be in a nice relationship and I am talking (as friends) to this one girl online she lives in a different country but plans on moving to the US and then we will meet. However she says that she could possibly want to date me but she doesn't know until we meet in real life.
What if she thinks I am completely ugly in real life though? I don't think I am that ugly but in real life no girl has ever been interested in me that I know of. But then again I was homeschooled and now I only work.
I don't do anything else but I will be going to college in the spring. I have been very introverted my whole life. I would like to be more extroverted.
I am a girl too by the way.
In a relationship I don't want to have sex in the beginning I've also never done that before. And would not want to do it with a guy. Maybe a girl if I'm comfortable enough. So that is why I label myself demisexual. However much I find people attractive if I were with them in real life I wouldn't want to have sex unless I really got close to them and maybe even then not at all.
That is why I think maybe asexual. I really don't want to be single that much longer but at the same time I wouldn't want anyone to get to close to me. If someone expresses affection towards me I get angry a little because I feel like in a way I don't deserve it.